Lost: A Sense of Humour

Big, can't miss it. Known to induce laughter and smiles. Could be found in a group of easy going people. Has been missing for a long time. If you find it, please contact me. Offering a large reward.

I can remember a time where happiness is a part of who I am. A time where I'm always smiling and laughing. A time when I'm not this dark. I still smile, I still laugh but it's not the same. I walk in a room and force a smile or feign a laugh so no one had to know how I really felt. There are times where I would truly, uncontrollably laugh but now those are far and in between. I remember a time when laughter was a part of my day, when I sat there smiling for no reason at all just because happiness is part of my day.

What happen to the laughter, the joy, the happiness? I'm not really sure. I suspect life happened. The universe decided to play hacky sack with my life. I had two choices, crawl in a little hole and hope everything gets better or take what is given and run with it. I choose the later and somewhere down the road I dropped my good spirited humour for hurtful sarcasm. Now realizing the error of my ways, I attempt to relocate this joy so that I could live my life with the best of both worlds. Unfortunately, it's hard to find this joy I once lost.