I sit here today, in a small coffee shop with a pad and pen wanting to write. Hoping to write another rant on one of life's observation. Many of you may not know this but a few weeks ago, Global did an news report on money being spent on new signs that indicates Vancouver being a nuclear weapons free zone. They even used the same sign as I did for my rant. I must be ahead of my time.

Anyways, I sat here in front of my cup of tea without an idea in sight. Until I looked up from my pad to see a young happy couple in front of me. This was when I thought to myself, how nice it would be to be that happy. Not to be happily in a relationship. But to be truly happy with my life. This isn't the first time I've ever thought that way.

I walk around in this life never truly feeling completely happy. To never really display true happiness. Sure, sometimes you have fun and laugh or smile but how truly happy are you? I know behind all that I'm still unhappy. I try to find happiness through success but it was never enough. I even try finding happiness through relationships, that too didn't work too well. Something in me still feels empty.

Many have stated that true happiness is found within. But how can you find true happiness within when to be truly happy within, one must be happy on the outside. Those external things can be work, relationship, fun and life itself. But one can't be happy with their surroundings if they can't be happy with themselves which comes back to being happy within. It a catch twenty-two.

I look up again but this time to the table next to the happy couple. Two ladies laughing it up. Must be an interesting conversation. I wonder how really happy they are. Maybe I'm putting too much emphasis and thought on happiness. Maybe I should just settle for what I have. Everyone else seems to be doing fine with that.